haven't posted in a while

So I just thought I'd leave a small note.

I love life. I'm busy 24 hours a day, but to know that God has my life in His hands... it's enough.

I'm thankful, because when I ask God for His heart, He gives it to me.

"He who forms the mountains, who creates the wind, who reveals his thoughts to mankind, who turns dawn into darkness, and treads on the heights of the earth - the LORD God Almighty is his name."
- Amos 4:13

I asked for intimacy, and I feel so close. Because I understand a small piece of how much it hurts for Him to see people blinded by the things that won't ever satisfy. The things that always demand more but offer nothing, when He's offering everything. Himself.

"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart."
- Psalm 37:4

I saw a dad carrying his kid into an ice cream shop. They were smiling at each other. And something about it just made my heart melt. I just understood - God wants that. Sounds sappy, but He just wants to dance with us, to smile and have us enjoy Him the same way He enjoys us - the same way He delights in His people.

And I'm understanding that He doesn't want me to just see church as tasks: I need to grow, other people need to grow, non-Christians need to be evangelized to... His heart is for people. For relationships. For love. Everything is summed up in loving God and loving people. And that doesn't mean that we have to try to get something done, it means we wait and we watch because God will pull through.

It's so cool, because God does display His love through people. And I never understood it until the end of this past semester in our last LIFE group gathering. I didn't believe it, but enough people shared, "God displays His love through people," that I actually felt it. God is there when we declare how good He is.

"It was I who taught Ephraim to walk, taking them by the arms; but they did not realize it was I who healed them. I led them with cords of human kindness, with ties of love; I lifted the yoke from their neck and bent down to feed them."
- Hosea 11:3-4