now

I've always been a firm believer in living in the present, but now when I think about it, what I'm looking toward in the future determines how I live now.

It really does matter what happens beyond the now. Living eternally isn't something I usually think about, and this past week I looked at things and wanted them for the sake of this life, but I realize that no matter how valuable they seem at this exact moment, they won't be worth anything in a year.

It's frustrating. Living faithfully is hard.

If I'm asked to look back on the past week, the past month, the past year... I can probably say that Jesus is making me a better person. Not a good person - a better one. There's still so much to learn, so much to explore in life...

I think and wonder... if I didn't take 2 steps back every time I take 1 step forward..

If I didn't let go of what I believe when I make every decision..

If I knew where I was going all the time...

If I didn't project my insecurities on a God that's so much greater than anything I can imagine...

If I didn't love myself and succumb to my desires every moment..

How would my life be different?