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There's a difference between what people say they believe, what they think they believe, and what they do believe. For me, that difference is especially significant. My actions describe what I really believe, my thoughts (rather, deceptions) describe what I think I believe. So if I had to outline it...

What I think I believe:

I believe that Jesus Christ has given me grace to save me.
I believe Christ is my Savior.
I believe God knows what's best for me.
I believe that no matter what I do, God will not love me any more or less.
I believe that I should love everyone.
I believe I love God so much I want to live for Him.
I believe all my resources should be used to benefit others.
I believe that I should engage in a fruitful relationship with God.

What I actually believe:

I believe God will shower blessings upon me if I do things for Him.
I believe that if I look faithful in church, God will look upon me favorably.
I believe that heaven exists, but I don't know if I'll get there.
I believe that Jesus lived and walked the earth, but sometimes, it just doesn't seem real that he's the Son of God.
I believe that love is conditional, and that some people deserve to be loved more than others.
I believe that living for God is important, but when I'm tired, I deserve a break.
I believe I need to feed myself first, before I feed others.
I believe that I only need to get in touch with God once a day. Preferably in the morning so I don't feel as guilty.

Some things need to be reconciled.