repetition

I've been going through missions training every morning (including morning prayer) from 6:30 am to 10:00 am (but realistically, it's more like 6:00 am to 10:00 am considering the time I walk to the T-Center...).

It's been good. Sometimes I feel like all of this would make a lot more sense and would sink into my brain a lot better if we did it at 1:00 pm instead, but of course, that would destroy a lot of the discipline involved. If I really want to learn about Christ and God's Word, I should be prepared to do it everyday. And even if I doze off for a minute during morning prayer and pray for the roof to be made of eggs (as I ramble on praying with my dreams...), I am gradually learning to discipline myself. For "no discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." (Hebrews 12:11)

The worst part about it to me though, is the repetition I seem to be going through. Not only in terms of the daily early-morning routine, but because I often think my spiritual life has ups and downs recurring in cycles - getting bitter, apathy, repenting, growing, being joyful. I feel terrible that I make the same mistakes over and over - I wish that I wasn't so fickle and sometimes I would stick the way I was. But alas, I am human, it is not to be.

P.S. This morning I woke up and walked all over campus to see www.mormon.org chalked all over. Wonder how many people in how many other religions actually have true faith that they believe the truth? Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. Do Mormons go to heaven?