a willbe

My greatest fear in life is becoming like someone.

If someone tells me I'm like or I look like someone in some way, the first thing I do is see what has happened in their life. And as I do that, much of the time I see and observe how their life has taken a turn for the better in a worldly sense and for the worse in the spiritual sense.

That is my greatest fear. That I turn out to be like those I resemble the most. I am scared that I am following my willbe path rather than my wannabe path. I want to be on fire for the things that are right, and I know it's tough. And I'm tempted so much of the time to turn to the alternative.

Some Hollywood movies aptly describe this fear I have. There's so many stories about "be all you can be," "don't let others define who you are"; about the children who fear becoming like their fathers so much that they end up becoming exactly that. I don't want to be like those who have strayed off the narrow path. When can I learn to entrust myself to God?