puppeteer

I am the one who is blessed when I am obedient.

Maybe at one point it hit me today, but prayers and missions shouldn't be a chore. I mean I just got to have the most awesome conversation with a friend about God, and I really wouldn't have had it any other way. To think I was hesitant to share the Gospel with him because I was lazy... that's just a lack of perspective on my part.

And I used to think that if I do this for God, then God will give me what I want. Like rest, like a lazy day, like good grades, joy, less struggles, blessings... whatever. But I realize I really don't believe in the prosperity gospel. I do things for God, but that don't make Him love me more. It just helps me to realize why I'm grateful everyday that God gives me life and a purpose, and because of it I'm able to talk to people and be blessed in the way that I can minister to them. The act itself is a blessing. Obedience is a blessing. No strings attached.

(Except for the fact that God is a master puppeteer and I am a good-for-nothing Pinocchio who has an exceptionally long nose and perhaps will never become a real boy. But you know what? I'm okay with that. Dancing along to the strings is so much more worthwhile and purposeful then trying to beat out the world on my own and somehow be someone I'm not meant to be.)