abuse

I feel as if I'm taking a sobriety test; to put one foot directly in front of the next, without tipping either to the left or to the right. Treading the delicate line between grace abuse and self-righteousness.

grace abuse - n. the act of taking the cross for granted, expecting Jesus' love, saying that one needs not do anything or make the right choices or stop sinning because the cost of one's actions are paid for by Jesus Christ

self-righteousness - n. the act of living life without any consideration or opportunity for Jesus to work, being self-dependent and feeling good about being "good"

I've always been the latter, but I realize the danger of the former. I want to be in between, able to understand Christ's love for me and to learn to love Him back naturally. But there's no surprise. This is a process too.