learning to love

I think it legitimately made me sad that we were ending LIFE group today. Thoughts of all the talks we could have had, time we could have spent better together, love we could have shared with each other.. it just made me sad.

And I don't want to just be sentimental. I really did take this past year for granted. I've learned some of the biggest lessons of my life. I think it hit me that I love these people if even only a little (with my hard hard heart).

I want to learn to love, to pour it out. I know we have this tradition here where upperclassmen buy underclassmen meals with no demand but to "pass it on." I like it. We should love the same way. Pay it forward.

God loved us first. Jesus died for us first. It's just a little hard to pass it on, that's all. But nothing that can't be overcome with the change that the Holy Spirit works in our hearts. (And I hate talking about the Holy Spirit because sometimes the statements seem so hazy and vague and intangible, but it is true. I changed; people are changed by the Spirit).

Learning to love. 1% of the way there.