fear and trembling

I was sitting today listening to Grad Night testimonies, and I was just wondering how these people managed to cling on to their faith through all four years in college. Why them, and not others?

How do I have the faith I have today? How will I ever manage to hang on to Him?

I don't think I can. I honestly don't. I think I just thought for a moment of how hopeless I am. I fear, because I can't grab a hold of even my own faith.

I fear. And tremble.