can I?

Pride shall be my downfall.

Pride in school, pride in life, pride in religion.

I read an article about how someone filed a lawsuit that the inauguration contains the phrase "so help me God," and the plaintiff claimed that this shows that believers are condescending and just want to show that they are better than nonbelievers.

I'm not going to deny that sometimes I have that mindset. And so it comes down to whether I am a good witness or not of my Lord. C.S. Lewis writes in Mere Christianity that pride is the greatest vice of them all, and that all other sins stem from this pride. He has never been more right and more insightful in anything. If I were not prideful in all that I did, if I were humble, if I were ready to love unconditionally...

And so one of my friends said that the word "agape" had an impact on her. Unconditional love from God, loving beyond the self. This "agape" comes from dying to oneself, from killing the pride that lies within, for pride is the self.

So the question that faces me today, faces me in the future is: "Can I?"

Can I kill my pride?
Can I give myself up?
Can He change me?
Will He change me?