looking back on baptism

I remember as I was taking the Baptism class last semester and finally got baptized on Dec. 16th, Pastor Andrew constantly told me about the struggles and spiritual battle I would face after publicly professing my faith.

Some things I've been going through and struggling with since then:

1) Worries about my own health
2) Apathy
3) Judging my walk with God with how much time I spend in church
4) Spending less time in introspection, less time praying

I kept on going back to these "struggles," maybe with an expectant heart, but nevertheless I am disappointed. Reading the Word today, I was brought back to when I was learning about the meaning of baptism:

"That's what baptism into the life of Jesus means. When we are lowered into the water, it is like the burial of Jesus; when we are raised up out of the water, it is like the resurrection of Jesus. Each of us is raised into a light-filled world by our Father so that we can see where we're going in our new grace-sovereign country." - Romans 6:3-5 (The Message)

I really need to know where I'm going, and realize that I'm no longer blind. As I am identified with his resurrection, I need to be more responsible with time, especially knowing that this short lifetime should be dedicated to God while it lasts. And the more I try to serve myself, the more I put myself in bondage. Remembering Call + Response - when I call out in bondage, the Lord responds.