shadows.

When I'm in the darkness - usually for me that means I don't care about anything but myself, and when I'm deeply confused.. especially when I'm sitting in church.

"Pay attention when God puts you into darkness, and keep your mouth closed while you are there... Darkness is the time to listen." - "My Utmost for His Highest," Oswald Chambers

It's easy for me to complain and feel dejected, lost, and alone when I'm feeling my bipolar-apathy kinda thing, but really, I take too much for granted. I need to stand with my mouth shut. Darkness is truly a time for me to listen for God - not to talk about others, or try to reason out my own answers. After the darkness, there will be humility and delight at the same time. God brings me humility as a gift of life - without it I would be a proud lump of dead coal.